Awaiting Miracles {Personal}

As Nate and I approach 4 years of being married, we are also awaiting the most precious gifts anyone could every ask for ...

twin babies.

It is still so surreal even after more than 7 months of seeing little babes on the ultrasound screen and seeing my body grow, and grow ...

It's been an emotional journey.

For 3.5 years not knowing if you will be able to have children ... trying to trust in God's plan.

Hearing and seeing what seemed like an infinite number of pregnancy announcements and "belly photos" and birth announcements... After a couple years, with each announcement, I felt happy for the new parents and at the same time I felt an unwelcomed stab in my heart. 

I have been hesitant to blog about my pregnancy and to post any photos or updates on facebook ...simply because I know how it may affect others and also I feel as though the little babies kicking inside are just too good to be true ... and I don't want to "jinx" anything by being too public or verbose about the subject.

While the pain of dealing with in.fertility has faded some, I still feel cautious to believe what is about to happen. I still feel at the mercy of the unknown...just wanting out babies to enter into the world safely and in good health.  

However, I suppose then even after they are born, we will still worry about them.  ;-)

I feel so lucky and blessed ... and also so aware that there are many people still out there who would love to be blessed with children and have waited far longer than us...you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Ok, here's one photo from a few weeks ago at just about 31 weeks along ... I already measured like I was full term with a single baby here.

I feel quite vulnerable posting this but nonetheless . . .

I may still have a few weeks in me left to stretch (!!!) 

(Thanks to sis Katelyn for this photo)

I hope to find the time and energy to take photos of our (human) children ... like I have for our (furry) children. 

For now, we will wait with hopeful patience.

I hope we can always remember that these children are gifts from above to cherish ... even when deliriously sleep-deprived.

;)