Ah! Mid-summer already!
Babies are 6 1/2 months already and personalities are blossoming! and teeth are yet to come in...yet ...but certain they will soon.
I want to say hi to you all out there; I randomly check blog updates but mostly I am fully and happily consumed with caring for our twinnies during the precious moments I have with them.
I am really struggling at this moment to keep my head above water, though. I have made some choices (i.e. returning to a full-time day job, continuing this photography business, etc, etc) that I am QUESTIONING MYSELF DAILY for...
How in the world I have not had a breakdown I don't know. I am questioning my choices as everything I am doing away from my babies makes me wonder if it is time well spent...
I have my moments where I feel, that truly indeed there is a purpose for me to remain working outside the home... and to continue my photography business helping to capture and preserve family's and friends precious life moments visually....
BUT
still...
is it all worth it?
I know many stay at home moms are happy, but trying to keep their heads above water, too even without demands of their own business or day jobs...
Am I just busy ....or effective...or both?
I must clear my head before I tackle the mounting hundreds, er thousands now... of photos yet to cull and edit.
Do I make another cup of coffee to try to bust through the pile... or do I kiss my sweet babes good night again and try to get some sleep so I can make it to work remotely on time?
I guess this is my way of apologizing for the delays in getting many of my dear clients their proofed photos...
I'm sorry for the wait. And I THANK YOU for your support.
I must learn to be assertive in addressing my expectations to clients: It will take longer to edit photos. I've learned that I need to maintain my sanity and still ultimately meet my vision to give my clients timeless and priceless photographic art...so thanks for your patience!
(P.S.... There is always WAL-MART photo studio...if you want instant photos... but if that is the look you are after, I may not be the photographer for you ;-) ....kidding, kidding....)
Oh, and any advice about the balancing act, I am all ears!
:-)
Saith & Neva: 6 months
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5 comments:
oh! That photo captured Saith and Neva perfectly! exactly their personalities right now.
I think we all fill our days to the max. The trick is learning what our own priorities are, and how to manage them. Also realize, as circumstances change, priorities will change too. Cute pic. of the babes!
I know how you feel. I work full time, have 3 girls and soon will have #4. Husband is going to school, so someone needs to pay the bills :) I tell myself it's temporary (he says 5-10 years)! I think you take it one day at a time. Some days I get sad because I miss out on so much. Othertimes I'm thankful we can have what we have, because I can work. Eventually it just becomes your life and you don't think so much about "what you do", you just do it. Hope you find a happy balance and keep taking photo's!!
I'm sending you and yours all my love <3 and wishing I could sprinkle stardust over you...
Special K
Jennifer- I am amazed at all that you balance! Can't imagine how busy you feel with two little ones(not to mention a job and photography on top!!). I am expecting our first baby in October and know that it will make the balancing act tricky! Make sure you are doing what makes you happy, and not just for others(I may be talking out loud to myself but we have to remember ourselves too.) Take care and your little ones are so cute!
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